The memories and sounds swirl around,
Behind my eyes, flowing down my heart,
Pulsing through my loins, and setting my core ablaze,
Again.
Some things I can't forget.
I never want to, not that I ever could.
The cranial chemicals who love danger and trauma,
Made allies to our love forged in primal dance.
I remember your eyes as you lifted them up,
To meet mine in flashes,
Cradling inside them the wonder,
Of what I was about to do to you.
The sounds of your screams echoing,
Deep into the watching woods around us,
As I destroyed you, consumed you.
Drinking your ecstatic torment in like blood from the Sun.
The sparks of bliss running up and down my form,
My teeth sinking slowly into your neck,
As I pumped my passion deep inside you,
Like a train surging into station, I made you mine.
Seeing the bruises my fingertips left on your leg,
From clutching you while you shook through the agony,
Together we were reborn over and over,
Until our disheveled facades crumbled away.
I could see you.
You could see me.
Every second you suffered for me,
And you looked me in the eye
As I watched you endure for me
Sacrificing your strength, your defenses,
Your postulations of all you or I were...
Or could be.
Every second you screamed in ecstasy in my hands,
Was another second you didn't run away.
You fell at my feet and embraced me deeply.
I held you as you looked into my soul while you whispered,
"Thank you, Sir" and I melted into shining puddles.
If you can love,
If you can crave,
If you can soothe,
The darkest parts of me,
Maybe I don't have to be afraid.
Not anymore.
Though you're gone now,
I still remember,
And when the right breeze flows by,
Somehow I feel you're close again,
If only for a moment,
And I whisper back to you,
Thank you, too.
And though I never told you,
I love you.
Goodbye.
