Ninefold Queen

The life I once knew as mine 

Streams down my torn and broken hands

The thoughts of my heart flowing and mingled,

With the screams of warriors from a thousand different lands.

Emptied of what triumphs I may have once held within my grasp,

I am reduced to a madly sparking dream within a frame,

Balancing on the thinnest wall between decay and animation. 

It is here where I died - where I became something else entirely.

This is your field. This is your power. 

Through splintered eyes, I draw in your presence.

You stand before me unmatched in deepest majesty. 

For you, alone, need not name yourself, ninefold Queen.

Gentle and severe, you carry me away past reason.

With dark glimmering titanic wings unfurled,

You dare my pulse to fall out of step with your pace,

As the Moon pulls the tide, my Life-lust rises to meet your gaze.

When I thought all lost, you uncovered me and held me close. 

With the love of a thousand suns, you roar the rage of legions into my being,

Setting my Heart ablaze with lighting passion of the Sith.

Within my very bones dance the memories of writhing tectonic bliss.

You bring me to Life beyond what I thought was death.

With Fey light flying through my nerves, I rise to my feet.

Unsure of what I’ll see through eyes newly forged in hell.

Of one thing is certain, I’ll live to tell the tale.

With exquisite hands newly taloned and a brow now crowned,

I stand on Earth as her Lover, crested by her majestic glow.

As she drains my enemies’ valor to the very last drop.

I walk as one reborn in Fire, ne’er again to be brought low.

She who dismantles nations with a single thought,

Has seen me broken beyond recognition,

Tenderly she carries me high above calamity,

And stirs my deepest lust to ignition.

Through vulnerability have I found immutable strength.

I run as one set forever free,

And now I stand on Sovereign ground, marked by She,

Who Is, Was, and will forever Be. 

[This piece, along with "Dance with Deity", is being published in an anthology entitled, "Finding the Masculine in Goddess' Spiral," edited by Erick DuPree.]

Today

Today is a special day,
Though every day has its own spark.
Its a day that I woke up yet again.
But something even more fantastic, seemingly a lark,
Has blossomed within me, though most might not see the gain.

Its a day where I woke up and,
Though I had no-Where in particular to go,
I didn't hate my life, oh no.
I didn't resent my brain for regaining consciousness.
For inspiring me alert.

In a strange turn of events, I awoke quietly proud,
Yes, even excited, though I wasn't very loud.
I was aroused to vitality, a surprise to my thinking-place.
I emerged from slumber victorious and at rest,
Something I haven't felt in ages,
Heretofore, I drudged forward neutral at best.

Whatever I'm doing is working, and working damned well.
In stepping out of many stories, I step back into my own.
My Legend that I for so very long have neglected,
Having buried the mountain of dust, I reclaim my Throne.
I'm back at the helm, Captain of my Ship, this I have detected.

I untether myself to that which drains me of vitality and vigor.
I set a course on the friendly tides under friendly stars,
For treasure, freedom, glory, and I figure,
I'll later wonder what took me so long to realize,
A full life enjoyed need not cinch one's inspiration with undue rigor.

Nay, the Winds of Change fill my mighty sails.
They carry me away from that which is dead to me,
The banshee for my previous experiments grows weary from wails,
I have a better plan now, one much more fitting, indeed.
I invoke the Sun and ride on proud,
For the lock on my door to happiness has been virtuously keyed.

Here's to you teachers, both pleasant and not.
Fine mirrors you've made, but I'm through sitting in rot.
I ride on having shed my ill-fitted skin.
I love myself, 'tis true, and I aim to spread the word.
Ne'er again shall I feign comfort when conversing with a turd.

As Captain of my Ship, many, not just myself alone,
See my example and are, themselves, set free,
This knowledge fills my wild Heart with Fire.
Adventure awaits, my fair wild mates.
Ne'er again shall I leave my destiny to the Fates.